Thursday, November 19, 2009

How do we deal with evil!!

I just read this story and it really got me to thinking about how we react to the obvious presence of Evil. Now I can go into what I mean by evil, the Devil, the lack of morality and all that. I think that is why reactions to it are so crazy in Today's world. So many people have tried to define evil for us that it has been watered down and weakened in peoples minds. We wonder if it even exists. We say that people are weak. Her we have a father that shot his son to death. The tragedy of this story alone is amazing, but the deep meanings are ones to live our lives on.
What can make a father kill his own child? Why was this child molesting other children? How can a mother stand by and watch her child be killed? how can a mother not know that this man was capable of shooting his child? What are all the things that lead to this tragic final scene?
There will be many psychologists, counselors, religious leaders and sociologists that will weigh in on a matter like this. Many regular folks will have sleepless nights and arguments in bars about it. There will be advocates left and right that will claim that it proves what they have been seeing for years. We will be pulled in many directions. Politicians will claim that they can end situations like this if we elect them. MADD will claim that drinking and driving was behind this. If not for the IRAQ war young men would not be dying in the streets in this way. My ex wife is an example of this type of crazy. My ex husband tried to kill me this way. All of our own emotions and thoughts will be tested and challenged. We will go into a state of fear over what is becoming of our society. There will be widespread panic and murder and mayhem. Sons will shoot their fathers because I better get him before he gets me.
I know that you think I am crazy right now. The thing is that is our reaction. And the reaction of the EVIL one that caused all of this is to sit back and laugh and say "I have got them right where I want them!!" So think about it. Let's stop letting the Evil rule our lives!!

Friday, November 13, 2009

Am I crazy?

I look around and I see a world that is filled with many great advancements. Right now I am sitting and typing and there are millions of people that will be able to peer into my little world in a matter of seconds. (that is some scary stuff). We have email, text messages, IM, video messaging, cars that talk back and all kinds of conveniences. But yet we seem to be the most miserable people of all time. Let someones Internet go down and you think they just contracted the black plague. With all of this we have lost our ability to communicate. It becomes a battle for us to say the simplest things to someone face to face. We hide behind our technology. We BS our way through a topic that is controversial because we are able to hide our eyes and mannerisms from a distance. We spend so much time surfing and browsing. I love my Facebook friends, but once a week I need to get together with them and have a laugh or a cry in person.
Our closest relationships are the greatest. We text to our special ones and say I luv u but we rarely hold them close and say I LOVE YOU! We rarely think about how much touch really means. We read quick blogs about the best ways to please our partners, but we rarely listen to what they are asking us for. We spend so much time seeking that perfect phone, that great computer, yet we are lost when it comes to finding a person to really connect with.
How many of us truly feel loved and appreciated? How many of us wonder if we really matter to others for more than just moments in time? Each day to you wake and wonder if you will finally feel that special something, that feeling of everlasting peace and joy? Do we seek it in the wrong things? The new gadget or gift. I have many people that I am close to, many that I call friend. But at times this world leaves me disconnected. Often times it seems that I am unable to just take the time to say hi and give them a hug. It is nice to have a friend that pokes me, but do I have friends that will hold me as tears stream down my cheek? Have I lost myself in a world of bits and bytes and not one of hugs and handshakes?
Maybe I have become afraid of real friendship? Afraid to let the world see that I am just a human, filled with doubt and fear. I have faith and that strength helps me through, but at times I fear life more than death, the beginning more than the Judgement at the end. I know it sounds crazy and some will say O ye of little faith, but how strong is your faith, let he that is without doubt cast the first stone. The world moves fast yet it slowly moves by my window, the flowers take months to grow and they are gone in an instant. Love seems to bloom in a moment and boom it is gone, or are we all lost in Lust, the momentary rush and boom on to the next one. I have a friend that I has been close to me for most of my life, I don't see him much because I am too busy, but I know that I love him as my brother, time ages us, but with him I am forever five years old. That is the bond of friendship, that is the bond of love. I have people that I have had relationships with and I love them and even though we are apart, they are forever in my heart. I am connected to this world through an Internet of shared hopes and dreams, I am wired to you all though networks of pains and tears. I am bonded by LOVE and forever you will be saved on the hard drive of my heart.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

Blessed

Well another holiday has come and gone. A day that brought highs and lows and I ponder life today. I have been blessed with awesome children. They are intelligent and beautiful and healthy. They are the angels sent from God to keep me from going postal on the world. Each day I ask myself, Self why are you here, then I see them and realize that for all the trials and turmoil I have blessings greater than anything else. So I march on with no clear path, with no real reasons. But I know that if I continue to teach and to nurture that fruit will bare and that the world will be a better place. It takes a village they say, what are the values that your village represents? Have a great day friends!!!