Am I crazy?

I look around and I see a world that is filled with many great advancements. Right now I am sitting and typing and there are millions of people that will be able to peer into my little world in a matter of seconds. (that is some scary stuff). We have email, text messages, IM, video messaging, cars that talk back and all kinds of conveniences. But yet we seem to be the most miserable people of all time. Let someones Internet go down and you think they just contracted the black plague. With all of this we have lost our ability to communicate. It becomes a battle for us to say the simplest things to someone face to face. We hide behind our technology. We BS our way through a topic that is controversial because we are able to hide our eyes and mannerisms from a distance. We spend so much time surfing and browsing. I love my Facebook friends, but once a week I need to get together with them and have a laugh or a cry in person.
Our closest relationships are the greatest. We text to our special ones and say I luv u but we rarely hold them close and say I LOVE YOU! We rarely think about how much touch really means. We read quick blogs about the best ways to please our partners, but we rarely listen to what they are asking us for. We spend so much time seeking that perfect phone, that great computer, yet we are lost when it comes to finding a person to really connect with.
How many of us truly feel loved and appreciated? How many of us wonder if we really matter to others for more than just moments in time? Each day to you wake and wonder if you will finally feel that special something, that feeling of everlasting peace and joy? Do we seek it in the wrong things? The new gadget or gift. I have many people that I am close to, many that I call friend. But at times this world leaves me disconnected. Often times it seems that I am unable to just take the time to say hi and give them a hug. It is nice to have a friend that pokes me, but do I have friends that will hold me as tears stream down my cheek? Have I lost myself in a world of bits and bytes and not one of hugs and handshakes?
Maybe I have become afraid of real friendship? Afraid to let the world see that I am just a human, filled with doubt and fear. I have faith and that strength helps me through, but at times I fear life more than death, the beginning more than the Judgement at the end. I know it sounds crazy and some will say O ye of little faith, but how strong is your faith, let he that is without doubt cast the first stone. The world moves fast yet it slowly moves by my window, the flowers take months to grow and they are gone in an instant. Love seems to bloom in a moment and boom it is gone, or are we all lost in Lust, the momentary rush and boom on to the next one. I have a friend that I has been close to me for most of my life, I don't see him much because I am too busy, but I know that I love him as my brother, time ages us, but with him I am forever five years old. That is the bond of friendship, that is the bond of love. I have people that I have had relationships with and I love them and even though we are apart, they are forever in my heart. I am connected to this world through an Internet of shared hopes and dreams, I am wired to you all though networks of pains and tears. I am bonded by LOVE and forever you will be saved on the hard drive of my heart.