Gaining new perspective

I have learned some valuable lessons the last few days. I have learned what really matters to me in my life. I have come to realize the blessings that I have. I just turnned 41 yesterday and I spent most of the day alone. At first I blamed myself for not being good enough to others and that is why I was alone. I had wronged people and pushed them away, then I realized that I was not to blame for others not being around. You can only do so much. You can only meet people halfway and I have spent my life going the distance.
The real problem for me is that I have not gone the distance when it matters the most. I have not allowed my life to be a shining beacon to others. I have not used my talents to glorify the one that gave them to me. I have hid myself from the world because I felt as though I was not worthy. I have allowed bitterness and resentment to rule the day. I appologize for that. In the future in this space I shall challenge myself to be inspirational. To show that no matter what the system may throw at you that God is good and he shall help you to achieve everything that your heart desires if it is for the good of mankind. Thank you for your time and God Bless.