The object is to Let go and Let God

I spent some time around the rooms of AA. That is a different story yet to be told. However when you are in those rooms there are things that are said that stick with you. One saying that always has stuck with me is Let go and Let God. the theory is that you must let go of a problem and leave it in the hands of your higher power. Hopefully I do not have to go into the higher power concept for now, is simply deep. Back to my point about letting go. Each morning I get up and pray to God to take care of certain situations for me. I talk about how I have no power over others and that I am unable to handle this situation or that. Each day I ask God to be in control of my life. I ask him to guide me and to direct me. I then go downstairs get my coffee and grab the steering wheel out of God's hands and go crashing into a tree.
That is the whole story of my life. That is the story of so many of our lives. Is it lack of faith? Do I doubt that God exists? When I walk outside and see the beauty of nature. When I hear that voice that is constant in my heart and soul, I do not doubt that there is a creator that has made the heavens and earth. I see that there is something that is much greater than any man ever could be. I have great faith that God is real. So why do I grab that wheel each day when I know what is going to happen? Do I have a short-circuit in my wiring that does not allow me to get out of my own way? Am I living in fear of failure, or do I fear success? What does happiness look like, has it been so far from me that I am afraid of it?
Now I have asked all these questions and not answered anything for you. I do not know what letting go and letting God looks like, I know what it does not look like. It does not look like spending all your time trying to convince others how great you are. It does not look like trying to be someone else that you think that a certain person will like. It is not trying to be all things for all people. That is trying to control your destiny. That is trying to drive yourself where you want to be and it is n ot letting God take control of where you are going. I am scared of that to some extent. I know that I have not felt great joy with where I have been and I know that there is great joy in where God wants me to go. I know that in loving God and allowing him to use me in his way will free me. I just have to Let go and Let God.