The Man in the Mirror

We are at about to place one of the greatest artist of all time in the ground. His life was our lives. His music was our music. As this historic event takes place I am taking the liberty of stealing one of his titles and using it as my own. Hopefully I will not get sued by his estate. Especially considering I ain't got no money.
Today of all days it hit me. The man in the mirror. Like most bloggers, writers and reporters I often will pick on someone other than myself. Most of my energy is spent on other people's failures. Or the system or something like that. I realize with the Michael Jackson coverage that we all spend way too much time judging other people. So today I am looking at the man in the mirror. I read a nice article by Cheryl Hudson called "How well do you know your man" in it she pointed out an exercise that she had done where she had to describe herself in on sentence. Now I could do that, the sentence would have about five hundred words in it, but I could do it. Seriously that is really hard to do. how do I take my 40 years of trying to refine my self and put that into one sentence. That is just crazy. I am to multi-faceted for that. That is when I started to look in the mirror. A lot of what I write about is based on how I perceive reality. As we all now one's perception of reality is their reality. We may not like it, but it is the truth. Now I can look at another and say man are they messed up. However that thought is based on my own perceptions and therefore are not necessarily the truth. Now as a writer and blogger, most times my reality is the truth, that said now I am looking at my own realities and trying to narrow them into a definition of me that does not take a week to read.
So those of you who have not put this down are looking for a point. A word of wisdom. Well here it is, there is no point for others today. The point to what I am writing is to give me an idea of what will come out of my mind when I am looking in the mirror. Do I really look at how I perceive me or am I still thinking about other people's view of me. Am I looking at how I see myself or how I want others to see me. I must look at me, truthfully and honestly. We try to lie to ourselves, but I believe that we are incapable of doing that.
So what do I see in the mirror. I see a man that has come up short of HIS DREAMS. I see someone that has allowed the challenges of daily life to get the best of him. Someone that has been sidetracked into believing that this world is nothing more than the things that you have. Right now I sit at a job that I do not like doing stuff that is totally pointless to me all for the purpose of survival. But I know that I would survive if I did not come back here tomorrow. That can be freeing and it c an also cause great stress. Why would I struggle worse than I am now when I can make a few dollars and help feed my family. What the heck is the purpose of dying a slow painful death.
That is my one sentence. I want the world and myself to see me living the purpose that I was placed here for. I want all to see that I was a great dad, employee, lover friend. I want to be known as one that was always striving to make this world a better place for all that come after me. What is is that I want to say.

I AM A BETTER MAN BECAUSE GOD GAVE ME PURPOSE AND I WAS ALWAYS STRIVING TO FULFILL THAT OBLIGATION.